Be Here, Be Now: You Need You

Sitting quietly meditating, in the early morning hours; or at least trying to sit quietly, to still my mind and be rid of the thoughts of yesterday’s mistakes, things that went wrong or right, my Spirit spoke to me:

Be here, be now.  You need you!

I pondered this message and thought of a saying, “Physician, heal thy self.” You may wonder what, if any connection these have to one another.  Well, you see, they are intertwined with yet another admonishing word from the Scriptures.  Often times we hear YHWH’s command to the Hebrew children in the Bible-Torah, to:

Harden not your hearts!

Now, I must really have you confused.  I am saying:

• Be here, be now.  You need you.
• Physician heal thyself. And
• Harden not your hearts.

North Americans are infamous for heart disease, in most cases involving “hardening of the arteries.” What happens when a body is riddled with “hardening of the arteries” is that the blood flow is restricted to and from the heart. Although the heart beats and pumps, the life giving blood is obstructed and unable to do its job; that of keeping the body alive.  We end up with serious illnesses like heart attacks, strokes, etc.

As I sat there meditating and these words kept coming to mind, I thought about blockage and restriction of live giving matter.  I thought about how my mind was fixed upon events of yesterday.  I thought about how life giving energy was flowing through my body, sustaining me, but because I was “stopped” on yesterday’s events, I was “stopping the flow of life.” That’s pretty serious, isn’t it?

My Spirit repeated,

Be here, be now.  You need you.

So, I pondered these words only.  I thought about me and how it is that I need me.  I needed to be “in the zone; in the moment” to listen to what was going on in my body, to feel my life energy; to be fully present to everything in the moment.  In order to do that, I couldn’t be fixated on yesterday’s events.

I breathed, deeply; again and again with my hands placed softly on my midriff.  I felt the raising and lowering of my diaphragm and I brought my eyes inwards.  I saw and I felt “hardness” in my chest; I visualized one of the doors to my heart, slightly closed; as though obstructed.  I saw that holding on to yesterday’s news (good or bad) was causing a blockage and the door was unable to be opened fully, because there was this “lump” of yesterday obstructing the door.  As I released the thought, drawing in, seeing with Spiritual eyes, the river of life flowing through me, the “particles” of yesterday appeared as just that – particles of dust floating along the river of life, barely touching its surface.  In comparison I returned to the vision seen earlier, where because I had embraced the event(s) of yesterday, it seemed I was holding tight, for dear life, not wanting to let go; re-examining and re-living as though I could change anything.

I saw that I was the author of my own, I was causing the,

Hardening of my heart!

Symbolism is marvellous when we take time to delve deep beneath the surface of the “words” we’ve read; the messages from our Creator.  When YHWH spoke those words to the Hebrew children, he wasn’t speaking of some physical attribute, but a stubbornness that had given birth (yet again); a wanting to do their own thing, despite His warnings not to do something, for their own good.  They hardened their hearts, became angry, stubborn and obstinate. They went their own way and paid dearly for hardening their hearts.

I am currently “under investigation” by the medical profession.  I’ve inherited a gift from my family – heart disease.  It is replete with hardening of the arteries that has taken the lives my brother, then my mother and lastly my father.  I do not want this “legacy” to continue, passed on to my children and my children’s children.  I want this “legacy” inherited by me, to stop with me.

I believe there is a message that goes much deeper than the physical symptoms that might be.  There is an underlying message to be uncovered and shared with not only my loved ones, but perhaps you the stranger who might drop by this blog.  If I consciously think about what is physically going on in my body, as often as I can:  especially in those stressful moments of life, I can physically see the results of “tightening” of muscles, holding of breath, clenching of teeth.  The physical is an outward expression of an inward activity or process; a sign that, “Something isn’t right,” within me and it needs to be looked at, to be examined.  And the message from my Spirit,

Be here, be now.  You need you.

becomes quite clear.  I need me to examine me, to be here and now, to investigate and discover what may be “out of sorts” within me, and then, “physician heal thy self.”  Clean your house, get rid of the anger or whatever it is that is in there, projecting those physical symptoms, before….

You see, only I can dig deep within me, and that, therefore, is why,

I need me; you need you to – BE HERE, BE NOW!