You Gotta Feel It to Heal It

I think that life and being human is quite an experience, especially when you choose to dig deep and allow it to happen.

I’ve spent a good part of my life avoiding what makes us alive; avoiding feelings.  That seems so very strange to me given I know my calling as a light and energy healer; of that there is no doubt.  I smile as I write this note thinking about the proof in the pudding that I have – my middle finger of my left hand.  It’s almost like a divining rod when it gets going with its vibrational energy.

I am so grateful for the heavenly hands that hold me these days as I allow my life to unfold like the rose or lotus flower; thorns and all.  I would have hightailed it to the hills a long time ago, rather than go through all of the spring cleaning.  I have a sense that I am on my way back up to the top of the mountain; that my days in the valley are coming to an end.

It’s really quite simple; the lights came on.

We are pure energy.  That is who we are.  We are not 7 or 8 or 11 or however many chakras spotted here and there.  We have those number and I have no doubt, a heck of a lot more.  These are just points; something like trigger points you get when you perform acupuncture or do reflexology.  What does any of that have to do with feelings?  I think just about everything, because you see (for instance), if you think about it and are honest, before you become physically sick such that the symptoms are clearly visible, weren’t you first emotionally under the weather?  Wasn’t there something bothering you and then if you didn’t deal with it, it just ate away at you and then voila!  You are physically sick.

When we choose not to experience and allow all of our feelings, I believe we are putting up roadblocks in our energy fields.  My stuffing things down and down and when they arose, stuffing them down and down again; well like oil rises to the top, eventually they came up – again and again.  I think I threw my breaker switch and didn’t even know it; perhaps even caused a short circuit!!

Feelings just are.  The human didn’t create them; the human came equipped with them, for a reason, for a purpose, for a season.  Equal time, I believe, no matter it be what we call good or bad; equal time and I think (at least for me) there would be less pain involved.

Feelings.  What are they?  Thoughts?  Energy?  Light?  Darkness?

Is one good or another bad?  Or, are they just that – feelings, emotions to be experienced and wanting to be heard, and then we move on?  That is what I have concluded.  It’s sort of like having a small child pulling at you, wanting attention.  You know they’re going to keep coming back until you stop and listen.  That’s all.  They (feelings, just like people) just want to be recognized and heard.  Could it really have been that simple all along, and my lights just came on?  Duh!!

I have to smile because the chaotic circumstances of my living environment have not helped much in my trying to make some clarity out of all of this; not at all!  For someone who loves plants and books all around her ready to be picked up at a whim, it has not been conducive to clear thinking and restful and relaxing meditation times.  There is no Tibetan Bowl to ring, no chimes or bells….

(Boo hoo....I miss my books.)