Words are powerful and the depth of a word so much more than the initial utterance. The importance of weighing one’s words is never so vivid as when in the presence of a child. A child, in younger years when learning language and speech, will hear exactly what you say and apply his or her understanding when using that word. The child’s understanding is also based upon who spoke the word and the circumstances in which the word was first spoken. The intent of the word is “subconsciously” registered in the child’s mind.
I have a classic example of a word that my oldest daughter responded to when she was about 2 years old. She was sitting in her high chair eating. She stopped eating and I could see her watching me. I knew she wanted to say something, so I said something like, “Come on dear, just spit it out.”
She did just that, she spit the food out her mouth!
Every word I speak to imparts an energy and power. I would like to think that it is a power for good. If I am ignorant of the meaning of the word then I risk doing harm to another. I am responsible for me and I am responsible for learning to understand the weight and importance of what I speak. It is my responsibility and no one else’s. I have been given the brains and an inquisitive mind; all the tools I need. Only I can take up these tools and put them to use: good or bad, as always the choice is mine.
Look at the Hebrew word Shalom. Most people (non-Hebrew like myself) will think it is a greeting that wishes another peace. It does do that, but the actual word has a depth of meaning much deeper, and much richer. According to the Kabbalah, Shalom is a state of completeness through perfect balance.
There is an Hebrew greeting that says Shalom Aleichem. It is a traditional greeting meaning peace be to you. When we greet another with this greeting we are wishing for them a state of complete inner balance.
In a book on the Kabbalah I was reading a section that deals with acceptance, and in acceptance we are restoring ourselves to a state of balance and I dare say inner tranquility; a state that is not dependent upon exterior circumstances and in fact grants us Shalom when we find ourselves in exterior circumstances not conducive to being in a balanced and restful state.
Hod is the 8th sefirot. According to the translation and interpretive meaning it means Glory & Majesty. In the Kabbalah, Hod teaches acceptance; acceptance despite circumstances. In acceptance do we grow towards this state of majesty and glory? We refer to the Creator using those terms. We are Created in the Creator’s image who is majesty and glory. I must conclude that it is very much a need to work towards this “returning” state of hod.
Light workers abound these days. Many have taken journeys they never would have dreamed of taking. Take the writer for instance. Brought up in an Irish, Catholic family, I never would have dreamed that my journey would ever take me out of that religious foundation, let alone to finding myself a member of a Jewish Synagogue for 2 years because I wanted to learn and understand Hebrew; to hear the words spoken as Yahshua would have heard and understood them. With my family background, no doubt if they were still holding the inquisitions, I would be one of those burned at the stake for heresy and witchcraft. And yet, these things I search out were all very much a part of the journey of Yahshua and many very much a part of the limited books in the Bible and/or Torah. It is just that we have grown up accepting another man’s interpretation and understanding of what certain words or phrases mean, without question.
A simple 3 letter word like hod holds so very much for us to grasp and begin to understand. To be open to the endless possibilities that not just a 3 letter word, but perhaps even only 1 letter of an alphabet or Hebrew alef bet comprised of only 22 letters consists of, is to give ourselves a gift
Hod – “meaningful acceptance.”
I am a student of living in acceptance. Until now I never associated the word “meaningful” with acceptance. To accept something, meaningfully, means to seek, to look for and to find the meaning in that which you are accepting. Again, it is not a surface or superficial acceptance, but an acceptance that says, “Hey. Look. There’s a treasure buried in here. Dig and find its meaning and the gift I have set aside for you in this event of your life.”
There is a saying that comes from Scripture about having eyes but “see not,” and ears but “hear not.”
There is a truth embedded within me that all of life’s questions and answers are found within. There is an inner knowing that I was given. It is about the Scripture that tells us about the “veil” being split on the death of Yahshua on the cross. I came to see that the veil was something that blinded you and I (eye) from seeing within, not without. It is within that all truth, wisdom and understanding resides.
I just spent the last couple of days suffering from symptoms of pink eye. As of yesterday it was in both eyes. I do not have a doctor. If I did, I would likely have gone to get something to clear it up because the first day or so it hurt like he**. When I went to bed last night, both eyes were discharging and very pink, itchy and occasionally hurting. A co-worker had told me about a walk-in medical clinic. I went there on the way home, but it was closed.
Now I can smile with hindsight seeing why these apparent roadblocks prevented me from getting help from the medical profession.
Having exhausted all external possibilities, this morning I was forced to look within to my own abilities; i.e. I am a Reiki Master and Therapeutic Touch practitioner.
I did a scan and could feel the extra energy coming from the area of my eyes. I lay there with my hands a slight distance from my face. I felt both hands heating up. It felt like they were magnates drawing stuff out of me. I could en-vision and saw little specks of dark shavings flying out being pulled by the magnetism of my hands. I sensed it was more than what was going on with my eyes. It was other unwanted negativity being pulled out, and I also felt my sinuses clearing. Although I had not been directing my attention to the sinuses, the all knowing Universal healing light and energy knows what needs attending to.
A song was playing in my head; “I Can See Clearly Now.” I could see clearly now. I had been given this physical symptom as an opportunity to (as the saying goes) physician heal thyself. My beloved Yahshua knows me well, how I all too often need to see the proof in the pudding so to speak (the doubting Thomas of me).
Lesson: If you have something physical going on with your body, go within and hear what the Spirit has to say about it and to teach you. There is a lesson to be found in everything that happens in your human journey. I have come to realize and experience that the most precious lessons learned are from those things in my life that have annoyed the he** out of me! If you and I (eye) can stop in acceptance and look at what is going on and ask, “Okay, what is it you wish to teach me today or have me know?” I have no doubt that (as I experienced today) we will be given the most wonderful and valuable gifts!
I do not think I am any different to most of you. To experience something reinforces the truth when you talk to others about who you are or what it is you are professing to be able to do. Even if you are 100% convicted of who you are and your capabilities, it is not you who needs to be convinced of your abilities, it is the client. The client will receive a tiny mustard seed gift of faith from having seen your self-healing or heard from others what you have been able to do for yourself (or others).
As Yahshua said (my paraphrase recollection), “If you have faith as tiny as a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain move, and it will be moved.”That would be the gift you would be giving to another human being to start them on their own journey of believing in the impossible and perhaps beginning to see their own abilities! More than helping the client with the thing they sought you out for, more than just feeding them, you will be teaching them how to fish for themselves. It will become like a tiny pebble of faith in dropped in the sea of doubt causing a ripple of faith to spread wide and far. The possibilities will be endless!
I was given eyes to see all this, this morning. They were not just symptoms, they were real and my co-workers saw what I was going through. They saw the physical symptoms with their own eyes. Most offices ban you if you have pink eye as it is highly infectious. I was not certain I had it because I did not have a doctor to diagnose it. I was allowed to work. The “negative” aspect of not having a doctor worked out to be a “positive” thing (the yin and yang of life). A supervisor said the policy was unclear about pink eye and it was left to me whether to stay or leave.
I therefore have many witnesses of the physical symptoms I suffered. Today, as of this moment, these symptoms have all but disappeared. My eyes that were blood red before this morning’s session, are now clear white and there is but a tiny residual of an itchy feeling. There is no more pain or irritation.
These irritating physical symptoms had been presented as opportunities. Thankfully I was able to see that this morning and learn some valuable lessons about myself and the gifts I have been given by the Creator. If I (eye) can always look at anything and start off immediately asking, “Okay. What is the lesson?” I believe as well that my journey will be so much sweeter and less irritating!
Found myself standing in a dark tunnel, dank and musty smelling. The light ahead, but a few steps away, was blindingly bright. I could not look directly at it without my eyes watering. I just stood there and got the feeling I had been standing in the same spot for a while; in the darkness.
Why had I not moved? Had I not been journeying to this point, for this reason? Then why was I just standing there frozen in one spot, blanketed in the darkness and feeling cold and chilled? Just a few more steps and I would be “in the light” and would be warmed in its healing rays. What was holding me back?
Darkness had become my familiar friend. I knew the darkness. Though I could see but dimly, at least I could see. It dawned on me in that moment that another attraction to being in the darkness was that I could also see a “form” of me. I was solid, concrete and actual in my eyes. I knew who I was and where I was while in this dark tunnel. I might not have liked everything I knew about me and I may have agreed with whomever along the way, to rid “self” of some traits that did not bode me or anyone else well. But, there was still a lot of me that I knew and was comfortable with; the familiar, the known and all that I had known.
A voice told me, commanded me but with a gentleness, “Step into the Light.”
Still, I would not move and after hearing that command my analytical self asked these questions. I have always liked to know what is in store if I do this or that, or what is in it for me; you know, to know the outcome of my actions, in advance. Life has been a life of, “Well if Game Plan A does not work out, there is always Game Plan B to fall back on.” I was not surprised when these questions came at me:
- If I step into the light, will I disappear?
- If I step into the light, will I like what I see (about me; no more hiding the flaws)?
- If I step into the light will I incinerate, consumed by the purity of the light?
I realized that although I have expressed that I am an adventurer, it is not entirely the case. I have always had some kind of a plan to “fall back on,” if the latest venture did not work out. I continued to straddle the fence; one toe occasionally dipping in the tepid waters of the unknown, the other foot solidly planted and continuing to remain on solid ground; an anchor if you will.
To step into the unknown, is to give over control to an unknown. I have lived a life of discipline (okay, most times) and rarely have I relished turning over control to another. I like to know at least a bit of what lay ahead. Yet, I love the unfamiliar and I love the new and delving into things I have never done before. In an honest revelation to self, I now see that I have done these things but fleetingly and for a moment, knowing that always~~the familiar was waiting right there, behind me, waiting for me to return any time I choose. Even these days and weeks and months of the past year I have always had the “familiar” to turn back to; the things I have done and known all of my life. My “security blanket” if you will.
I know I am being asked to “step into the light,” completely “leaving behind” the things of yesterday. Scripture comes to mind. The story of Sodom and Gomorrah tells of Lot and his family leaving Sodom and Gomorrah, warned by YHWH to flee before He destroyed the cities. YHWH warned them not to look back. Lot’s wife looked back. She was turned into a pillar of salt. There is also the story of the Hebrew children, set free from Pharaoh. In their journey to the promised land, some time had passed and they began to grumble and yearn for the “good old days.” Even though they had been prisoners they knew who, what and where they were. There was a routine of familiarity.
I think; I am sensing that I must “completely severe the umbilical” cord of the things of yesteryear because this is,
A new day, a new dawn, a new venture. New things have begun; end of Chapter 1, beginning of Chapter 2.
Am I “fear-less”? No, I am not. Am I “fed up”? You bet.
I stepped into the Light.
I have often thought and even expressed the inquisitive question of whether or not there could be a relationship between anger and cancer. This came about from personal experience but also in thinking about how cancer seems to be more prevalent in these generations than say our grandparents and great grandparents. I know that environmentally there are things that have increased in levels of toxicity, including the soil in which our food is grown and the air we breathe. But why is it that two people who breathe the same air, eat from the same food source and have similar healthy lifestyles can go different ways and one might come down with a dis-ease and the other not be affected?
Cancer eats away at the body. Anger eats away at the person who is embracing and holding on for dear life to the anger. It never affects the person or thing at which it might be directed. If anger is not dealt with, where does it go? There is a definite physical symptom available for the world to see in a person who embraces anger. There is no light of life (twinkle) in their eyes, they may have angry looking expressions on their faces, in their body language like clenched fists, tense or hunched shoulders. All of these things are visible on the exterior, but what about the interior of the person embracing anger?
I have been reading a book on the teachings of Tao Te Ching. Chinese medicine relates the 5 major emotions to specific organs. I will share with you a bit of the lives of relatives who ultimately succumbed to cancer in their passing. Both of them were female.
One I knew very well (“Female 1 – Daughter”). On her death bed her last words and facial expressions were anger and bitterness. Catching glances of her before her passing in the hospital bed, even her hands were clenched into fists. I could almost see beneath her covers bodily knots tied in her muscles and ligaments. The other I knew slightly (“Female 2 – Mother”) both personally and through stories about her life that others shared with me.
Female 1 – Daughter
Her life was one in which she consistently tried to prove her worth to her own mother. As a married woman and mother she spoke in ways that I might call self-boasting to lift herself up in the eyes of others. I would not call her a quiet person; she yelled a lot and even threw things. There are few moments when I can say I saw her smile; the opposite far out-weighed those moments. I came to realize that she really did not think that highly of herself and this would have began when she was a little girl and the way her mother had treated her. She was first diagnosed with lung cancer and had surgery. Later she was diagnosed with kidney cancer and had surgery. At her passing the remaining lung was filled with cancer and it had spread through the rest of her body.
Female 2 – Mother
She was a strong and controlling woman and felt that male and female had certain places in life and behaviours that were to be demonstrated. She was Female 1′s mother. She rarely expressed a compliment and had a critical tongue. I recall visiting her one time and as I ran up the backstairs of the house she came storming out of the door and yelled at me, “Young ladies do not whistle.” I stopped dead in my tracks. I do not think I ever whistled again in her presence. Many years later I heard she died of cancer. She had been complaining of abdominal pain and when the doctor opened her in surgery they found that her entire bowel system was full of cancer.
Anxiety & Sorrow - Lungs
According to Chinese medicine and Tao studies, anxiety and sorrow damage the lungs. The very word anxiety comes from a German root word angst meaning narrow, or narrowing of the bronchial tubes. When we are anxious breathing often becomes labored and is restricted. Pay attention to your breathing the next time you become anxious about something. You will see that you certainly are not breathing deeply and at times you may even find yourself gasping for a breath. Grief depresses and weakens the lungs. To hold in the grief is damaging. It must be ex-pressed. Female 1 passed less than two months after the death of her son. It was only on her passing that her family found out the cancer had returned to her lungs.
Fear - Kidneys, Adrenal, Liver
Female 1 lost one of her kidneys to cancer a year after having lung surgery for cancer. Fear causes pain and disease in the kidneys, adrenals and lower back. It creates conditions favorable to urinary disorders and incontinence. Fear damages the liver. Female 2′s entire bowel system was filled with cancer.
In Chinese teachings,
- Joy dwells in the heart
- Anger dwells in the liver
- Worry and sadness dwell in the lungs
- Thoughtfulness dwells in the spleen
- Fear and shock dwell in the kidneys
In meditation and those quiet moments, listen to your body and hear what it has to say. It will tell you and you will know the corresponding emotion that requires attention in order to restore balance. I am a believer that first the emotional then the physical. We all to often pop a pill or even get an holistic treatment from someone else, when the first thing we ought to be doing is delving within and having conversations with our bodies. Our bodies will speak to us. They are speaking to us loudly, when the physical symptoms begin to emerge. The cause was there long before the physical symptom came to life.
I hope that this writing inspires you to dig deeper and begin to know and understand yourself through all aspects; the physical connectedness of every organ and bodily function, then their relationship and connection to the emotional and spiritual; and then all human aspects to the multiverse at large.
I have not touched on anything outside of the human/spiritual connection, so let me leave you with this to ponder. Each of the human chakras has a corresponding planets. Western society works with 7 chakras. I’ve written on research found that speak of 12 chakras. New planets are discovered and this could mean there are more chakras than even the 12 that are written of in this special and linear time. The point is, if you dig deep enough; if you knock, ask, seek…you will be given to know.
Is it not amazing, this connection to all that points to the Oneness of all?
Get to know yourself and then physician, heal thyself!